December 12, 2010

  • I know i shouldn't be sulking, but I am so pissed off at my dear husband that i can't help but wallow in my current mood. 

    I love Christmas and decorating and having family in. I agreed to no tree this year per his wishes. i decided to do a little decorating with my Christmas tree collection and set out my grandmother's handpainted nativity scene done in ceramic. I love the story of Christmas, of Jesus's birth and the promises that come with it. If people don't feel the same way I do, that's fine. To each her own. My husband doesn't get why I'm so excited about Christmas.  I told him the above and he quieted down, but I know it's not the same for him. I can handle that. What I'm having trouble with right in this moment is that he moved things around from the back room to a closet and now I can't find one of the boxes that has a crystal tea light tree in a velvet bag. This is royally pissing me off because he has been moving things around to different places ever since he retired and I am sick and tired of it. 

    Part of me wants to tear through the closet again and see if I can find it. That would be ok if my back wasn't so cranky today. He's napping on the couch and all I can think is that i want to wake him up and yell at him. This rage is kind of disproportionate to the situation. If I look back at my time in OA, I know that I am Hurt, Angry, Lonely and Tired. So it's time to get something to eat and maybe take a nap. 

    Thanks for listening. Blessings abound

Comments (2)

  • And if you're anything like me, it adds to the rage if your partner is SLEEPING while you feel as if you're dealing with calamities all alone! I feel ya', sister!

  • I understand that. S used to do that to me, and I've had to have the conversation with P when I felt he was trivializing what I believed to be important things. Hope you find it! *hugs*

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