October 24, 2012

• The Lyme Whisperer

     I had another appointment with The Lyme Whisperer today.  I did the round trip without staying at a friend's nearer to Hanover the night before. She was sick and I didn't have the energy to drive after work last night. So home I stayed. Went to bed early. Slept well. Since moving one of my anti-depressants to the morning, I sleep better at night. My dreams are exceedingly vivid and cling to me through the early morning. By evening all that is remembered is a character or a snippet of plot. 

     It was a lovely day for a ride over Rochester Mountain. Many of the hardwoods have been denuded. Here and there scallops of vibernum lace the rocky hills. The sun was out and the weather mild, so I took LoraBoraLabraDora with me. She loves to ride shotgun and the mild weather meant she could safely stay in the car during my appointment. And to make doubly sure she was safe, I parked in the shade.

     LW is pleased with the progress I have made. He is thinking of switching me to the next strongest antibiotic. Since I saw him last, I have stopped taking one of the medications that keeps me from hearing my mother's voice in my head. I'm sleeping better. The anti-depressant I switched from evening to night makes me edgy and I find myself gritting my teeth during the day. However, it's supposed to help "energize" me.  LW is concerned that it is contributing to my anxiety. I use the majority of my energy during the day to focus on my work and get home without making a grievous error. I know I can't be perfect, but I am worried I will miss a detail or not triage someone correctly and have that slip or decision end up in harm to another. The brain fog is better during the day than it has been.  I am hoping I can continue to work through this. Tetracycline is the next drug up. So for the next three weeks I am to pay attention to how I'm feeling, sleeping and determine whether or not I am still benefitting from the Amoxicillin.  It is both scary and exciting to be thinking of the next antibiotic. Exciting because it means I am better than I was and progressing in treatment. Scary because it means becoming sicker in order to become healthier.  Scary because November is almost here and it is one of the worst months of the year for me.  Usually, my depression worsens in November. But now the question is: was the worsening depression in the past or untreated Lyme that was cycling through and sapping me of any good energy? Either way, it is something I must plan for and be vigilant. I must be mindful to get enough rest and not overexert.  

   

    When I came home tonight I made a lovely chicken stir-fry with celery, onions, green pepper, garlic, bok choy and spinach. My ginger root was dessicated beyond resurrection, so into the compost bucket it went.  i used Bragg's liquid aminos in place of the soy sauce I cannot consume and it was very tasty. I think it's time to get into pajamas and read a little before the World Series comes on. I doubt I'll stay up for much of it, but still, I do likes me some baseball and the Fall Classic will be it until February and Spring Training. 

  Blessings abound.

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