July 21, 2013
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Reclaiming Bits of Myself.
As I progress through Lyme treatment, I have the opportunities to re-claim the ability to do things I had lost. Yesterday, for the first time in two years, I made pickles. The last time I made pickles I was taking Percocet shortly before I was scheduled to have surgery for my back.
Needless to say, they were not the best batch of pickles I have ever made.
Last year, I was too sick and too tired with treatment to make pickles. The spirit was willing, sort of, and the body very weak and achy. I’m sure my family was a little disappointed because there were no pickles last year. I was disappointed because for most of my life, a way I show love is to cook for my family. The food restrictions associated with my treatment have made me hesitant to make things for my family: cookies, cakes, pies, pasta; that I used to. I am afraid I will not be able to restrain myself from eating the batter and the finished product.
Yesterday, through determination and a little help from my husband, I canned fifteen pints of Dilly Beans. I had the satisfaction of hearing fifteen pings through out the evening as vacuum seals were assured for keeping my work safe.
Today, I feel as if I were hit by a truck. I stood and processed and lifted for longer than I have in quite a while. I know this will pass. Tomorrow I am ordering twenty pounds of pickling cucumbers from a local farm. Dill Pickles will follow shortly. I cannot express how very, very satisfied I feel. How very hopeful I feel that all the crappy symptoms, fatigue and pain from the die off of these freaking bacteria will in the end, be so very worth it. It already is. I feel very blessed today.
Comments (3)
I’m glad you are reclaiming your life. I know it has been hard and painful. I think about you often and pray for your total recovery. AND, I remember how awesome your dilly beans were, so please keep up the good work!
Robbie, Is there a way to stay in contact? Are you on Time Suck I mean facebook? Jam Tammy Snyder, Ripton VT.